droplets

so here i am, at 2:54am
wide awake,
staring at the ceiling.
i went to bed at 12, but i have a lot of things on my mind.
it wont leave.
ive been thinking about it,
every second, all day today.
its the same person,
im trying to forget,
but when i get close,
comes right back into my life.
its like theres a signal,
'alert: shes nearly over it'
and in a flash, suprise, they are back.
its the same person who, tonight,
when i nearly got myself to forget,
and was nearly asleep,
sent me a drunken text message saying
'im drunk but i sure aint smiling, i miss you babe'
and then another message every 5 minutes until suddenly it stops
and im left here
wondering what the hell is going on.
it makes me want to cry.
because it hurts
and i dont know why....


You left a mark, I wear it proudly on my chest,
Above my heart, Above my heart..
To remind me that I feel the best, When I'm with you..
When I'm with you.
To me everything is effortless, You know its true..
My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it..

'Cause I'm walkin down this road alone.. and figured all I'm thinking about is you, is you my love..
And my head is in a cloud of rain.. and the world it seems so far away..
and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your tears..

xxxx

life

i am so not blogging tonight emily.
i am sooooo bitter at life.
thanks to flapjacks and coconut though.
made my night.
best in the world.

goodnight.